Lately, I’ve been questioning my professional/life choices. It seems if I were to chart my life going back to birth, I might see some consistencies. ( Forgive me if this all sounds too cold or formal or technical; I can’t help it. I’m a trained technical writer.)
But this proposed chart, which is all in my mind anyway, would note that every few years I seem to have an epiphany. This epiphany pretty much equates to “what the hell are you doing?” Meaning where am I going. I’ve since gone freelance with my occupation with mediocre results and wonder if I shouldn’t just go back to being a desk jockey, just embrace the corporate servitude, which reminds me of this…..
Sometimes I question the choice I made 3 years. The choice to do what I love, what I do best rather than live a somewhat comfortable life with a consistent paycheck. I can’t even remember when I exactly made the conscious decision to go “freelance” or independent as others call it. The stars aligned, the moon was full and the life altering decision (although at the time it didn’t seem so life-altering) was made.
It seemed normal and natural to pursue what comes naturally . Double-digit unemployment, outsourcing and automation in my area made it an easy choice, perhaps. If you add the daily grind of relentless marathon meetings, phone calls and other interruptions that usually pushed the agile writing (deliverables) off until after 5 pm, the choice seemed obvious.
So here I am stuck at GO. Do not pass and do not collect $ 200.
Have you ever wondered how different your life would be if you had made a different decision? Whether it was between two jobs, two cities or two life partners? What’s your story? And how do you feel about he decision now?
